seeking equilibrium

by Roberto Lavidez

putting to sleep

a hundred years

of prejudice by

sedative dreaminess

torn by an inner

conflict which

cannot be resolved

itself a disease

an idiosyncracy

the strength to

create conditions

for drastic change

had declined

the poison had

sunk too deep

solidly embedded

in the edifice

of human knowledge

unable to subvert

break through

let in sweet

smells of ether

from intermissions

of peace and

contentment

interrupted all

hopes and sleep

by postcards

tinged with a last

will and testament

of a familiar

rat-tat-tat-tat-tat

of destroying the

world or saving

the world from

destruction

birthing

the calculable

or rebirthing

the fabricated

out of mere

appearances

not without

agony of

the will to

nothingness

over the will

to life

contemplating

all sorts of

distress and

transgressions

from an 

arrangement

of carrots 

and sticks

in the chaotic

scattering of

unbalanced 

resources

seeking futile

equilibrium of

a soul that

knows nothing

©robertolavidez2013