Auden’s
kind
by Roberto Lavidez
hearts grew
unkind
minds blind
where reason
is denied
and love
ignored
we realize
the woods
are deaf
and the sky
nurses
no one
when
wakened
from
a dream
of glory
we find
ourselves in
purgatory
someone
must pay
for our loss
of happiness
our happiness
itself
and the
silence
ripeness
and the
ripeness all
to be free
is often
to be lonely
a storm
of tears
wept in
a corner
are these
the seeds
of a
new life
the healers
and the
brilliant
talkers
the eccentrics
and the
silent
walkers
how can
we will
the knowledge
that we must
know to will
the intricate
play of
the mind
enforce
conformity
with the
orthodox
bone
hearts which
alter
but is
the same
always
earth in love
or in hate
our occupation
leaves no
trace on
this place
where nothing
could have
suffered
sinned
or grown
heroes
are buried
who did not
believe in
death
to be
invisible
and free
without
remorse
earth’s
darkness
invents
the blaze
of heaven
and each life
must itself
decide
to what
and how
it be
applied
why
we’re all
like people
acting in
a play
you must
behave
as if
this were
not strange
at all
occupy
the time
in purely
random
thinking
the centre
that
I cannot
find
is known
to my
unconscious
mind
though
considerate
and mild
and low
the voices of
the questioners
how grandly
would our
virtues
bloom
in a more
conscionable
dust
I must
take charge
of the
liquid fire
and storm
the cities
of human
desire
I am
the solitude
that asks
and promises
nothing
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extra Pound
by Roberto Lavidez
what is
the use
of talking
and there
is no end
of talking
our mind
is full of
sorrow
who will
know of
our grief
I have
weathered
the storm
I have
beaten out
my exile
through
all the
wood
and the
leaves
are full
of voices
quite out
of place
amid
resistance
to current
exacerbations
a day
when the
historians
left blanks
in their
writings
the grand
piano
utters
a profane
protest
with her
soprano
the bull
runs blind
on the
sword
his lone
might
against
all darkness
opposing
the still
stone dogs
caught in
metamorphosis
in valleys
winding down
toward
the sea
amid the
slaves
learning
slavery
some
in fear
learning
love of
slaughter
at morning
there are
flowers
to cut
the heart
to sing
one thing
when your
song
means
another
and things
growne
awry
like
a dog
that has
lost
his owner
bewildered
that a
world
shows no
surprise
let us
take arms
against
this sea
of stupidities
there is no
high-road
to the muses
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Borges and beyond
by Roberto Lavidez
I walk
slowly
like one
who comes
from
so far
away
he doesn’t
expect
to arrive
the deprivations
the ignominies
of growing old
disintegrated
in the depths
of time
this dear
world
losing shape
fading away
sluggishly
your past
existence
magically
lasts
I surface
from
my own
dreams
from
the unseen
horizon
and from
the very
center of
my being
I am
touched
by the
frail
wisdom
lost
in every
man’s death
leaving
a verse
concerning
the sad
hour
images of
infinite and
solitude
the fiction
of time
destroyed
free from
love
from me
the essential
thing
is what we
always miss
the ancient
aura of
an elegy
still haunts
me
snuffs out
the faint
voice
of the
ancestors
we are
granted
agonies and
ecstasies
within
the web
of their
own
vertigo
all praise
to the
inexhaustible
labyrinth
mythologies
live in
your soul
oh destiny
of Borges
I do not
understand
how time
can pass
a world
of dust
of chance
of nothingness
sometimes
it moves
me
to pity
to one
eroded
by relentless
seas
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Laytonic
(skimming Irving Layton)
by Roberto Lavidez
did I turn
from dragons
to live
with fleas
the innocence
of nature’s
cannibalism
heals and
purifies
my thoughts
skimming
the air
bid me
to take
my quiet
rest
at home
leaves and
shadows stir
languorously
there’s
a change
unresting
change
in the
changeless
eternal forth
done forever
with the
insult of birth
I live among
the amnesiacs
they’re about
as useless
as tits
on a bull
I’m sucked
into a
whirlpool
of earth
decadent
inert
enough
energy
remaining
only
to suffer
evil
in any case
I’m adjusting
my organs
to the
future
desire
unspent
had all
but spent
spoiled
a dignity
I shall not
again find
another step
and I shall
be where
I started
from
without
a quaver
of misgiving
or self-doubt
vaginas
once gave
birth to
mediocre
poetry
to ecstasies
and sighs
the calm sea
the blue sky
the laughing
children are
deceptions
let me
not taste
this
desolation
that unclimbable
mountain
I rage
I heard
my voice
cry
prayers
resounded
like curses
I would
gather
my tears
into an urn
and I grow
deaf
to all
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languaging Rilke
by Roberto Lavidez
nothing is
what it is
it’s as though
everything
would have
a second life
so that
for time
we act life
transported
not thinking
of applause
the hard
labor of
living
the long
experience
of love
when
together
we felt
happiness
it belonged
to none
of us
you language
where
languages
end
for no course
leads back
we
the endlessly
ventured
hastening
through
the once
existent
future
for everything
still lacks
conclusion
creatures
of a dream
engendered
in the throes
of anguish
that you
occupied
and left ache
more
being opposite
and nothing else
and always
opposite
we were
happiest with
what always
stayed
the same
how strangely
everything
behaves
the mountains
are heavy
the oceans
are heavy
we see only
the reflection
of the Open
which our
own presence
darkens
pining rifts
into the
old abysses
endlessly
falls
pure
immense
no longer
to be
lived in
flowers
yellow pearls
slender bones
hands and
tunics
faded
weavings
above the
caved-in heart
aren’t they all
that way
simply
self-
containing
sing the
gardens
my heart
those you
never knew
may death
less darkly
find its way
then solitude
runs with
the rivers…
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Baudelaire’s
resting
place
by Roberto Lavidez
at the hour
when the
chaste stars
close their
eyes
the grave
will whisper
to you
in those
enormous
nights
where your
floating
dreams
are full of
hummingbirds
overbrimming
with dark and
melancholy
pleasures
torrential rain
opaque sky
making a
scene of
gloom
insatiably
hungering for
whatever is
obscure and
uncertain
without
the least
understanding
of eternal
designs
what charm
there is in
nothingness
dressed
to kill
man endures
the fear of
mystery
wherever
he is
in what potion
in what wine
in what brew?
you earn
forgiveness
through
eternal
martyrdom
for everything
cracks
yes
even love
and beauty
reducing
to ashes
all the fire
that once
flamed
for us
when the
setting sun
bloodens
the sky
with scarlet
wounds
like some
cook with
morbid
tastes
I boil and
eat my
own heart
exchanging
many
a nudge
and many
a wink
all chaos
swirled into
intelligence
evoking
happy
moments
like
opening
flowers
into the
azure sky
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Cummings
and goings
by Roberto Lavidez
life is an
old man
carrying
flowers
on his head
beautifully
wandering
in merciful
miracles
this man’s
heart is
true to
his earth
filled with
newly
murdered
flowers
for all men
kill the thing
they love
though wish
and world
go down
one poem yet
shall swim
the dogs
the dogs
the dogs
are conspiring
bodies
lopped of
every
prettiness
since
we are
spanked
and put
to sleep
by dolls
someone
has been
born
everyone is
no one
a little
innocence
creates
a day
let’s live
suddenly
without
thinking
like a
weird
lamp post
on a road
of dreams
the utter
silence
of the
untranslated
stars
feeling
throughout
ignorant
disappearing
me
what time is it
I wonder
never mind
crickets
within me
whisper
an oceaning
abyss of
orange dream
I am a beggar
always who
begs in
your mind
at pitiless
the mercy of
time
time
time
time
may myself
do nothing
usefully
what a
wonderful
thing
is the end
we’re
a mystery
which will
never
happen
again
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